Monday, August 18, 2008

Me and I

They say that our "true nature" comes out when we are alone and nobody else is watching. If that is the case, I seem to be profoundly sad much of the time.

I don't think about it much, because I keep myself busy, I give my time and energy to other people, and I don't think about myself all that much. But then, when I do stop sometimes and I'm forced to think about myself, I'm just lonely and sad.

I wish I could be one of the perpetually happy people. I kinda envy those people that can get happy by buying things for themselves. I'm sure I could do that, if it would help. I don't want to smother it with alcohol or tobacco, I know that isn't the way. What is a man supposed to do?

I recall the Simon and Garfunkel song: "I am a rock. I am an island. And a rock feels no pain. And an island never cries."

... yeah, right.

2 comments:

rdautumnsage said...

Find something that truly delights you...just you. When you do it's something to spend time doing in those quiet moments. Makes them seem not so lonely, rather quality time you begin to look forward to.

I find myself cherishing those relatively quiet moments...for a good book, quiet reflection on a walk in the woods, time spending with my dog. Your worth appreciating dear friend. When you reward yourself with the quiet moments, it's a reminder your life can be serene and whole. (Hugs)Indigo

itsjustme45j said...

Rocks and islands only feel no pain when they are sufficiently medicated.