Friday, October 31, 2008


Her: "You're beautiful"
Me: "Nobody else sees me that way"
Her: "Well, you are"
Me: -choked up-

Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed
But I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Mi casa es marrón

My house is brown.

The exterior will be finished in the next couple of days. The outside of the house is looking really good. I got rid of white and blue and went with tan and brown instead. Pulled out some trees, got the lawn back into full bloom, cleaned up some junk. Now time to finish the inside of the house.

I need more money. (Waiting on the next miracle.)


"A memory is what is left
when something happens
and does not completely unhappen."
Edward de Bono

Monday, October 27, 2008

Klingon Kindred

Three new friends:
Todd the Barbarian (Nosferatu)
John: the man, the legend, the bartender.
Gunny: fierce friend, deadly foe

All the girls in their bustiers.
And the tails, and claws, and the kitten ears.
And vampire girls with blood-drenched teeth.
Oh my, oh wow, oh dear.

But none of the sweet things could compare.
With the long-legged beauty called Sweet-Pea.
Lips like candy, eyes like fire.
She's dangerous - she's deadly.

Little red lighter?
I'll keep it close to my heart!
(Glad I was single, I think I'm in love!)
And a voice like you wouldn't believe.

And then, to top it all off, my son, my own son
WON the Bat'leth championship battle.

I spent some money to help out a good cause.
I was able to spend time with good friends.
What an awesome weekend!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Twilight Fading

It's getting darker now.
Each day the sun sets quicker.
Cold seeps into my bones.

And just when I think it's time to hibernate,
Angel sends an annoying birthday card,
Eve lets me know that she misses me.

The candle in the corner flickers for a moment,
All of a sudden, I remember feeling love,
and it warms my soul.

Yes, I am invisible now, but that won't last forever.
One way or another, I will rejoin the land of real people.
I will not return to my ice cave. Not this time.

We're filming again this weekend.
Too bloody early to be awake on a Saturday.
Fortune and fame, that's what it's about.

The hornets will be there.
I'm on a hair trigger lately.
They better just stick to the script.

Whining doesn't suit me; I want out of this funk.
Think I'll drink a bit tomorrow night.
Trying to remember, trying to forget.


Con Job

Upcoming convention this weekend.
Those things are always dangerous for me.
(And this one is an anniversary of sorts.)

Circles and more circles.
And I'm just a tangent line that touches all of them.
(Barely notice-able.)

I dread my next encounter with the hornets.
They've gotten their way, and they'll be gloating.

(I'm strong. I'll be stoic, chin up.)

Last year, I was a scientist.
This year, I'm the invisible man.

(Boo mutha-frakka)

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Week One

Time marches slowly this week.
Many people were let go at work.
I'm coming down with a cold.

The hornets finished their task of taking Eve.
Now snuggled warm in their hive.
They will slowly consume her.

Winter is here.
Joy to the frakkin world.
Kick the snow off the pumpkins.

Friday, October 17, 2008


Happy Birthday To Me.
Happy Birthday To Me.
Happy Birthday blah blah blah.
Blah-blah blah-blah blaaaaah blahhhhh.

Got calls and cards from my mom and my dad. (sigh)
Got a gift from my son (he actually remembered! he actually wrapped it!)
Got some well-wishes from my friends (thank God for each and every one of you!)
Spent most of the night at work, the rest sending text messages.

No cake.
No beer.
No party.
No songs.

Does "Denny's" still give you a free meal on your birthday? (I'm about to find out.)
I'm sleepy tonight. Maybe I'll celebrate tomorrow.

I make this promise to myself:
This is the last birthday that I will spend lonely.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Storm Front

Weather is a great bluffer. I guess the same is true of our human society -- things can look dark, then a break shows in the clouds, and all is changed.

E. B. White

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

The Earth Shifts

This is going to be a HUGE week for me - lots of changes.

- My first paid speaking engagement (yaay!)
- There's talk at work about a new Directorship for me (coool!)
- Major shifts in my romantic life (I'm gonna have a lot of time on my hands) :(
- It's a birthday week for my sister and I :)

I spoke with the Shaman woman last week.
She told me that she sees LOTS of changes in store for me.
That all of these changes are good - my angels are watching out for me.

I'm so excited!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

All or nothing

You're still the same,
I caught up with you yesterday.

Moving game to game,
No-one standing in your way.

Turning on the charm,
Long enough to get you by.

You're still the same,
you still aim high.

(...Let's roll those dice one more time...)

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Autumn Closing In

Welcome to my new website (friends old and new).

I want to thank all of you for for listening, for your kind words over the years.

You are all part of this beautiful experience, and I really appreciate you.

As the next chapter begins I can't help but wonder -
what adventures are waiting around the corner?
(Only time will tell)

Love you all.